The Climb…

I met a person recently struggling with loss. She lost her parents in a very short time frame from each other. That is hard! I had 17 years in between the loss of my dad and then my mom and I thought that was hard! Again, we know it is going to happen, but we are never prepared for that loss!

We all have our coping mechanisms, I hope! We somehow walk ourselves through our pain and sadness, whether it is leaning on family, memories, or whatever is our go-to. Some people drink. Some go to psychics. Me, I write. But the connection and survival is different than my outlet. Music speaks volumes to me with my survival too! This is how I communicate with my son since he passed, or how he communicates with me…

So, I sit here in my chair and I go through YouTube videos wondering what will show up in the play list. It is a sign. I don’t care what anyone says, it’s my God wink!! If you search one thing, all kinds of suggestions show up. It is like it is psychic with the use of the algorithms!! So, with my new friend in mind and her struggle as well as my existing struggle, I let the play list speak to me!

The first search I had put in was Drake Milligan, an AGT 2023 contestant! Awesome singer!! The song that came up was “Save it for a Sunny Day.” If you listen to the words, the message speaks volumes! They tell me it is ok to have moments when I just want to think back in time and pull all of my memories out of hiding! Basically, those days are good for that. I could not agree more!!

Next was “The Joke” by Brandi Carlile.” Another awesome song that builds confidence!! This song tells me for all of those people who thought I could not persevere, the joke is on them! And that applies to anything I believe I can do, or overcome!!

Last song I listened to was Miley Cyrus and “The Climb.” Yes, I am going to have mountains I want to move. Yes, I am going to have struggles. The amazing thing is the climb… out of darkness, out of the walls that were caving in on me, and coming out on top!! These songs separated mean little. Put together, I can survive anything from the messages! Not to mention, this song itself was one of my son’s favorite songs and came up again in a sign from Heaven on my birthday a few days ago. I was looking for the signs that day!! I was in a restaurant out of town with my husband. I heard a small child signing this song. It was live at the restaurant and I know it was meant for me!!

This blog post is called, “The Climb” for the very message and the definition of the words. Life is a climb. It doesn’t matter what we are going through. Save the moments of strength for the days you know you are fine, but take moments of solace and hold on tight!! Know the joke is on those who thought you would fail, or drown in sorrow, or, worse yet, fail to survive! Be strong for those who held you up in the past and are no longer here! Be the person they know you can be! Climb out of the darkness and survive anyway!!

We all have sadness. We all have happiness. We don’t always get to choose when those moments hit, but we can choose how we respond!! As I have stated before: two choices. It is literally Robert Frost’s “Fork in the Road” and the decision will lead to another fork, and another! I want my fork to be leading uphill, the climb!

I am forever changed because my son was born, and forever changed when he died before me. The choices I make going forward are for me, but a lot of them because of him. I choose first and foremost, to remember the good times and the man he became. I want to be mad at him for the choice he made that fateful night, but where would that lead? It is a mountain I want to move, but must go around instead.

I am just beyond a month from the six year anniversary of his decision that has led to the many decisions I have had to make since then. It is my climb I endure, even though I know I have never been alone in my climb. As I do, I may still cry because he is gone, but continue to smile because he was here!!

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