The choice was not mine to make. As a survivor, we try to rationalize every minute detail. I am exhausted. I must accept things that happen can be outside my control. I can only account for my actions from here.
I am saddened, but I cannot be sad all the time. I have joy, but it is appreciated a lot more now. I have family, here on Earth and in Heaven. We will be together again. It may vary in generations of our time here, but will have very little interrupted time when He brings us together for our next journey.
Until we meet again, I will cherish the time given and pray for only good memories to come from your early departure. I can be mad, but it will take away from the joy I have remembering those times. I can be sad, but that overshadows the good times you blessed me with. I will choose to be happy to honor you and the life you lived.